I'm back. I promise.

Today, as I was updating all my news feed and media content, literally all of it, I was thinking about simply writing. Writing simply for the joy of sharing my story, for the feeling of having other people read your experience and enjoy it. Then I decided to come on here, check it out, look through my old stuff. I guess the best word I could use for what happened is that I had an epiphany. I remembered why I started my blog, why I needed it. Why it was important to what I was gonna do with my life. It reminded me of what I wanted, and still want to do with my life. I don't know where I thought I was going, thinking I was gonna go to college in New Mexico, go to tech. Be some sort of mathematician? That's not what I want. That's never been what I wanted. When did it change? When I thought grew up, and thought I knew what I was doing, and thought life was about what you were good at, not what made you happy. I bet that's when. I've recently had a major epiphany and I'm back on track. For the past two years I've been pushing myself to go to a school I don't want to go to, major in stuff I'm good at, doing stuff that would get me places faster. But none of that, absolutely none of it is what I want and it never was. I've decided that 5 year old me, learning everything from her older sisters, and basing all of life on what little she knew, seriously knew what the heck she was talking about! I want to write, I want to be a travelling journalist, I want to write books and see the world through my own two eyes, on my own two feet. I can't believe I let my future go. But It's back. I'm back. I promise.

The Life You Want

Life

Life forces change. But when it throws too much at me I just want to fall down.

Then I suddenly realize: All I ever had is now gone, and my life will change forever. It will never be the same. I talk to one person and my whole world falls apart. The only way to feel better is for life to take one or two steps back. Only when you finally grasp the thought of letting go will it happen. But how difficult will it be? When will I let it go that my old life is never coming back. No matter how many times you complain or take it out on someone else, nothing will ever change until fate gives away your destiny.

That only leads me to more questions though. How long until Life finally reveals it to me? I want it now, I want this dread and pain to be gone. All I want is my happiness back. I knew life would be hard but I sure didn't expect it to steal from me.

Just let me live life right.

Hmmm...

Florida. Have you ever wanteed to just go somewhere and visit? Well of course you have! Why am I even asking? I'm asking because I want you to think about something...
   What is your favorite place in the world? My favorite place, I don't know quite yet. But there is ssomewhere, somewhere I've always wanted to go. Florida. Florida... Florida has sunny weather all year long!!!!!!!!!!!!! and I'm in a great need of real sun. And i'm gonna get it for sure. Florida...
    Instead of just visiting, think about living there. In the snow or in the sun, it doesnt matter az long as it's your special place. I'm moving to florida and I'm getting a bunch of those littl disposable camera deals for pictures. Than make a giant scrapbook. I can't wai, but then again, I can. I don't want to leave my best  friend, but why should I worry? everything will fall into place. Right? I hope so anyway. I'm making another scrapbook too. One of all the fun times that we had together at school 'n' such.Anyway I'm moving to Florida and that might be the end of it, but maybe not.
     So whatt really is my favorite place? No one knows... Not even me.

New Mexico.

Hi everybody! Sorry I Haven't Been On Lately... I Have Been Busy Enjoying My Time In New Mexico!! Soo I have been here for almost 30 days now! It's been a very long time since I've seen my mom. Oh  Yeah and did i mention.. I'm down here visiting my dad, my 2 brothers, and my grandparents. I'm really happy I'm down here but I am feeling pretty home sick every once in a while.  I'm not talking about the trip because I honestly don't remember much of it, and I have been on this trip so many times in my life, it just wouldn't be much for this blog. I have to go now but I am going to try to very frequently write in my blog. I really want to get the typing started and the story written!

Thank You Karina!

Okay, there is one more thing for me to say tonight. I want to thank my sister as much as I can. so here it goes, thank you soooooooooooo much for helping me create this blog, I will always thank you for that because it shows you care. Even if I don't get what I want, I will always feel that I did.